day 5

WOW yesterday sucked. I was soooo tired on my way home form work and it was all I could do to shower and go to bed. Also I started to get a migraine on my way home from work so by the time 7:00 rolled around I was definitely hurting. So I was in bed sleeping by 8:15pm! But I woke up feeling much better today and have felt great all day. Much more energy today and this evening after work. Can't wait for the weekend and just relaxin and my nieces 1st bday party Sunday. Hope I am finally over this migraine business this month.

Day 3

Today is day 3 of this journey. I woke up at 4am with a killer migraine. Relpax didn't do anything for it. I ended up having to call in sick to work, not good at a new job. I went to the Chiropractor and got an adjustment, that seemed to help. I figured I was probably due for one as I have had a migraine or neck pain for the last 5 days. Yippee fun. Hopefully the rest of this week is uneventful.

Day 2, no signs or symptoms from the shot. Super tired today but I think that is from my first "real day at my new job. I will get used to it and hopefully the tiredness goes away and doesn't stick around with the shot.

Today was the day after my first shot. I woke up with a terrible migraine headache. I am not sure if this is related to the shot or to the fact that I get menstrual migraines and I was on my period when I started the shot or the stress of starting this process, or all of the above. I hope this was just a fluke and I will be migraine free during this menopause. Something that I am really looking forward to as my migraines are hormone related and mostly centered around my menstrual cycle. So hopefully no menstruation, no migraine. Wish me luck with this one.

This is me

Hello, my name is Jackie I am 27years old and was diagnosed with primary infertility due to Stage four endometriosis in July 2009. My husband and I have been married since May 28, 2005, I am an RN in surgery and we have a dog and 2 cats. My journey began in September 2008 when my wonderful husband Aaron and I decided to try for our first child. I had gotten off of the pill June 2007 so I could ensure that I would get pregnant as soon as we started trying. I had also started charting my cycle using the natural family planning method so I could be assured of my most fertile days and get pregnant immediately. November of 2008 I went to my OB/GYN for my annual exam and presented him with the information that I had a short luteal phase of only 9 days. It was then that he started me on Prometrium a progesterone replacement to be taken after ovulation until menstruation. I then thought OK , THIS will be it we will now get pregnant. March 2009 my Dr decided to do a sperm analysis on my husband which came out great, nothing wrong with him. Then in July of 2009 I had surgery, on the hunch my Dr had that I had endometriosis. I underwent a Laparoscopy, Hysteroscopy, D&C, and Tubal Lavage. I was convinced that he had to be wrong as I had none of the symptoms of endo. Well turned out I was wrong. I had extensive endo covering my colon, ureters, bladder and other vital structures in my pelvis. The good news was that my tubes were wide open and no endo on my ovaries which he said were "beautiful". But the bad news was that due to where the endo was located he wasn't able to remove most of the lesions for fear of perforating something and causing a real problem. While he talked to my husband after surgery he mentioned Invitro Fertilization as our best bet to achieve a pregnancy. My husband and I were devastated. I went through the whole grieving process, denial, anger, sadness, bargaining, etc. you name it I thought it. I then decided to do research. Unfortunately nothing really promising is out there for the treatment of endo, they really don't even know why it causes infertility in someone like me, where the processes of ovulation is working and nothing is blocking the passage of the egg. There are theories but they are just theories not facts. My Dr suggested treatment with Lupron Depot injections monthly for 6 months to put me into pseudo-menopause and essentially choke out the remaining endo which feeds off of estrogen. This is also just a theory with about a 50/50 response from Dr's as to whether it is effective in reestablishing fertility or not. My husband and I decided to wait and try on our own for a few more months after the surgery hoping that the surgery was enough to get things in working. Which brings me to now. Here it is January24, 2010. Last night I gave myself my first shot of Lupron Depot.This blog is my journal of this trip through my infertility and treatment. Also my journey through pseudo-menopause at the age of 27. If no one reads this that is fine but if you find this and it helps you in any way that is really great and what I am really hoping for.